praying for us

the nasty person is going to be our president. his election has already released his nasty followers to unleash their hatred upon those who are different than the white uneducated pigs. it has been all over. and it has gotten me to the point that I am saying fuckit to the peace and love thing. i must fight these ignorant fucks. in every place, whether in public or silently. Starting with joining a campaign for the senator we have now who is going to be targeted by nra. start by seeking out disruption forces, and joining them. start by not being afraid to show my affiliations. fuck them the rotten core of our country. 

not much to say

past month was a blur. rode, crashed and sliced my ankle. also more severely hurt my shoulder. my elbow on the same arm has not improved, I think it will only get better with a different setup on the bike.

Not seen mr mr. Not made a real effort either. but that is ok. I will see him this month somehow. jerk face has been that. but handy to have around to fix car when it is broke. so next one occupying the position had better be a decent wrench. 

my little granddaughter is growing and getting more people-y. Talking to the point where I can understand her better. adventurous and funny, and a happy kid. Lauren is still having bouts with her drinking, she will always be that way, I have to accept that. I hate it for her child. She may be pregnant again. that will keep her from drinking for 9 more months, and for a while after so she can nurse. but I always fear for the call. 

I want to go away. supposed to go to Maine this weekend, with my limited funds. the car breaking the other day kinda put that on the back burner. so it is still something I want to do this year. see the ocean at dawn. or see the mountains at dawn. not the stupid street lights. we will get there

with whom though? 

what a year

yeah, the past year and some has been wonderful. with the exception of not seeing mr mr, it is good. the summer of my 63rd year is good. lots of bike rides, all winter even, fun with my granddaughter who is running circles around me, the paul mc cartney concert, baseball games with john and our constant conversations, the yankee game sitting in the sports bar on the hottest day of the year. yeah. now to take the momentum into the autumn and keep riding when I can, keep pursuing the elusive mr mr, and develop some new skills. yeah

The autumn is coming

My daughter’s 37th birthday is today. That is always the first sign of autumn. I had to wear longsleeves on my ride the past two nights. Just a week ago it was blazing hot!
 
 Sometimes my rides are just beautiful. Last night as I was nearing the end of my ride, the air was the smell of a meadow at sunset, when the first evening dew is settling in, and a cool breeze slides over your legs as they pedal home. It was delightful. My rides have been wonderful this year. I am so much my cycling. It is my soul
 
 
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quite a few emotions

The house closed Tuesday. no longer the baker family homestead. time marches on. sad. relieved that I don’t have to look after it anymore.

went to NYC saturday for yankee game, extremely hot and humid but was in the sports bar. nice. except for the asshole company. saw star trek beyond sunday with jed, good movie.

and now I am sitting here finishing up dad’s title19 and not riding tonight. riding during that heat wave we just suffered thru was nonexistent. way too hot. looks better for more nice nice temps this coming week and weekend. so I will ride. time to do some power work, speed work to take the fitness in to  the winter.  ha ha.

and me, i keep chooglin

memories and tears

i went to granby house Saturday. check it out after the clean out. it is closing next tuesday. I was in it for about 5 minutes and the tears began to flow. the memories of things, of dad mainly. even with nothing in the house, the memories were overpowering. I left quickly. I think I may have left in the house, the old scrapbooks. oh well. they are gone. I do have boxes of photos, which I will eventually make sorted. but the school pictures, the report cards, the momentos, gone. 

i have been limping along, have to get dad’s title19 redetermination done. that will occupy my time the next few days. I won’t ride my bike until I have arranged the papers, and see what I have to get from bank. reward myself afterwards with normal living again. normal. yeah right.

lauren has been drinking a bit again. that is heartbreaking for my granddaughters sake, but there is really nothing I can do about it. I could confront her, but then I would never see Violet until lauren got straight. saying something might push her over again. I hate this walking on eggshells with her. it is what it is. life. 

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dawn

i went to bed early last night, had a long day with lots of walking at six flags then a decent bike ride. woke at 5 and the dawn was starting. newness. fresh start on a new day.
 
 yesh getting all philosophical on ya.
 
 my rides have been hampered by my elbow pain. a tweak to my bar position may solve it. as soon as i can this week i will make an order and see. more upright so less stress on it. having a different hand position might work too. try one thing at a time.
 
 
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summer blah

obladiobladah

He did not get oil as promised when he shorted me on the month’s “rent” Says he won’t be able to get it until August’s check. Which means he will short me again. Bastard. Damned if i have him here, damned if I don’t . bastard. 

I am riding regular, and loving it. I am in my element when I am riding. Next is to get a kayak. but maybe after I sink some money into fixing house. Might be a better thing to do. sigh Dog is over fence and I have to go retrieve her. you would think she would learn, but no…

Another meh TDF

Boring. No one really attacked. Other than Froome. He won it. Teams will need to bring on better riders to take on team sky. And the budget will need to increase. Sigh.
 
 Going to be too hot for me to ride today. I will do some maintenance. Do some photos and make my ebay listing to get rid of the bags i have accumulated. My first foray into ebay selling. I may even do craigslist to sell the raleigh. Set it all up as almost stock. See if I can get a couple hundred bucks for it. And maybe sell the gianni. Save the money to get myself a carbon road bike.
 
 And today, i need to clean house. Uggh. Working all week and having my housemate totally useless as far as cleaning. House is mess.
 
 And, really getting urge to do my sewing to make a useable bag for my frame.
 
 And… sleep.
 
 
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concert, blahness and riding

Sunday was the best birthday present ever. the show was amazing. Something I will remember the rest of my life. 

the tour however leaves much to be desired. no one is really attacking. no action since froome himself did two “attacks”, the downhill one and the one with Sagan. boooooring

my riding however has been increasing, and I even suspect I will do a road ride soon. JUst waiting on the pumping of the tires. maybe even tonight.