Maximus was born on the 20th. he is precious. Violet is warming up to him, she will have a playmate soon as he gets moving. He is a strong boy, already holding his head up. I just pray Lauren does not start drinking after he is weaned from breast. Like she did with Violet. Like she denies, but I have all the drunk texts. I hate that she lies so much. Wants to be the drama queen.
Jed is back to driving. Has the machine. But only for a year. He will drive drunk again, he will get caught one way, and he will go back to jail to serve the rest of his sentence, but he does not understand that part. I urged him to keep the thing in his car for a long time. If I can advocate to authorities to make him keep it, I will.
Work is work.
No mr mr
Mike is an asshole.
I am riding as much as I can.
yeah, the past year and some has been wonderful. with the exception of not seeing mr mr, it is good. the summer of my 63rd year is good. lots of bike rides, all winter even, fun with my granddaughter who is running circles around me, the paul mc cartney concert, baseball games with john and our constant conversations, the yankee game sitting in the sports bar on the hottest day of the year. yeah. now to take the momentum into the autumn and keep riding when I can, keep pursuing the elusive mr mr, and develop some new skills. yeah
Sunday was the best birthday present ever. the show was amazing. Something I will remember the rest of my life.
the tour however leaves much to be desired. no one is really attacking. no action since froome himself did two “attacks”, the downhill one and the one with Sagan. boooooring
my riding however has been increasing, and I even suspect I will do a road ride soon. JUst waiting on the pumping of the tires. maybe even tonight.
everything here with him is smooth so far. i counter his badgering and criticism with silence and a stare. and i go away. we will see what the future holds for us.
riding has been going well. except this cold is hanging on and i can’t taste, i can’t hear. trying to figure out what to do, outside a trip to the urgent care. i may try the online doctor and get a antibiotic script to clear the infection in my sinuses and middle ear. it really sucks.
saw mr mr in his yard last week maybe? nah week before. i wonder if i will ever sit with him again. probably not. but he makes for a good target.
i am still working and screwing up once in a while. gotta stop that.
ya know life is like a flowering plant. the beauty is here for a while, then dies. lauren had to put scrappy down two weeks ago. i see pictures of him and i miss his furry little face. he was a good dog, even if he was obsessed and stinky.
i really want to be on my own in business again. i hate working for someone else. i mark my time every day doing my tasks, but nothing to challenge me. i want that bike related business! i will have it soon. at least the start of it.
the new tires I bought in December paid off. I got into work yesterday in the snowstorm. however, next time it snows, I will go a different route. Laurel Hill and Rt 12 have too much traffic, and I was afraid I’d get stuck behind someone who could not make it up the hills, like all those cars I saw on the other side of the rode down near the looney hospital.
I am hoping to be able to get out on a ride tomorrow, if it warms up a bit. I should have finished making my bike booties, my toes are going to freeze. we’ll see if it is a go.
and no mr mr. I am leaving him alone for a while, gosh it’s been over a month since I bugged him! hmmmmm maybe I bug him tonight. nah, not likely to get out of bed and go out in the cold just to not see him. fuck it.
I was in an odd mood last night. decided to take a trammie on the way home from simsbury. but it did not seem to affect me. that was around 6pm. later I was in bed for a bit, and took a gaba and when it started to descend on me, it was nice. i was half sleepy, enough to not watch anymore tv, but not enough to fall asleep. it felt nice. i wandered around the bedroom a bit, and when I did lie down and close my eyes, the first show was the waves of dark rolling over my eyes, darker and darker, but it seems the background lightened up so the next wave, literraly a wave in my eyes, was dark. i walked around again, then the next show was kinda a bunch of fluid paintings, muted colors shapes, faces and things of creation that I wish I could put on a surface to retain. but definitely not an eyeshow that I have experienced since acid days. eyes shut, but still. it was nice. sensations were nice. I finally must have fell asleep. woke just before my alarm at ten til 8. then not again until 11. My cold is still with me. it has to be a sinus infection cuz the cold is not moving to the chest and then out of me. but it has been 2 weeks now. I felt good yesterday, all stuffed up again today. I’ll try the neti pot and see if it helps.
I had visions of doing a ride today, it is warm enough. but with this head cold or whatever it is, I think I will just stay inside and work on my bikes. Have to head to colchester fabric mill and scope it out, maybe buy some corder for the toe warmers I want to fashion. a couple styles. have to experiment. my old velocipac one will serve as a pattern. boy, I am so glad my grandmother taught me to sew and that I had home economics teach me the rest. I see a pattern and I know how to use it. I used to make my own bile clothes. a few things, I made a top for a pair of shorts and stitched them together into a skin suit. I remember. I remember.
yeah. onward. get stuff done.
I took the whole day and cranked out a website. instead of learning a new framework, I used my good old akita. one down, one more to get this week.
david bowie died yesterday. sad. genius. showman.
and while doing the website, I somehow got things cleaned up a bit in my space. more cleaning to do, but it is a start. now to sustain that energy.
The upcoming week I will dedicate to the tasks I must do. Get the things done I must get done, for others, for myself. Mom’s bank account, the insurance phone call, my eye doctor appointment, my dents appointment. Cleaning out the house here.
Let’s see how good I am at this. I have had some success on staying out of the fantasy land. It is something that I think had really been holding me back the past year. Time to jump forward. ahh yes, leap year.
Oh, and if it takes me more than a week, that is fine. I will forge on.